With the arrival of Fall (my favorite time of year) comes the arrival of the THIRD TRIMESTER!! How is it possible that only months ago, we had no idea if we were ever going to have children, and now we find ourselves nearing the END of this pregnancy!
Here is me and Silas at 27 weeks .... That red thing used to be a dress. :)
It is beyond belief for both of us, I think.
Casey has been hard at work on Silas's room. He has ripped our carpet, stained the concrete floor, painted, and put up that wainscoting all on his own. He doesn't know it, but I noticed a difference in the way he handled this project differently than any other home improvement project we've done. He took painstaking time and effort to perfect this room. It was so sweet to watch. And he's done a wonderful job! I can't believe we actually got to start on a nursery this time much less finish it and put a CRIB in there. The sight of a crib, ready and waiting, at OUR house is beyond words. We are so thankful for that sight. Last night Casey told me, "Let's go in the baby room." I said, "Ok" even though I had no idea what we'd do in there. So we just stood there and looked around. It was a moment. It feels like Silas was always meant to be here. To me, it doesn't feel like the arrival of a new person ... it feels more like the return of someone who was always supposed to be here and who we've missed so much! I know he'll fit right into our family.
Here's a sneak peek of his room:
His room is such a peaceful place, and I hope he thinks so too. A good friend, Kristi Scott, is working on some things for the room. and we cannot wait to see what her creative mind has come up with. She has been such a supportive friend throughout our ordeal, and it'll mean so much to one day tell Silas his "Aunt Kristi" decorated his room. :)
This week, we have two friends who had an INCREDIBLY SUCCESSFUL egg retrieval and are now looking forward to another attempt at a transfer. We are praying for them and their success! I have another friend who is just beginning her Fertility Journey. As I look back at ours and know the feelings they are feeling right now, I am sending them love directly from my heart and praying not that they have strength because they already do ... but that they RECOGNIZE the strength that they do have and go forward bravely, peacefully, and confident in the blessing it is to be female and have the ability to endure considerable pain while smiling their beautiful smiles to the world. Somewhere our there.... those babies' souls are peacefully watching you and waiting for just the right time to take their rightful place in your families. I'm thinking of you every day.
I recently made a Lullaby Station on my Pandora so that I can put headphones on my tummy for Silas to hear. One of my favorite songs that plays on there is "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri. It speaks to the purpose of this blog post: Bravery, Fear, Doubt, Relief, and the arrival of the One who was always meant to be there for you to love. Please enjoy!
Aunt Kristi loves him so much!!
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